I Give You My Fear

 When I woke up this morning all I could think about is my poor husband. This man that works so hard for us every day. This man that has had his child ripped from his arms for no reason at all. I couldn't stop thinking about how much I miss my step-son, and what I would give to hold him in my arms right now. I couldn't stop the flood of emotions pouring out of me as I was anxiously worrying about how we are going to pay the bills this month with all of the time he needs to take off for court, on top of the new costs that have just landed upon us due to this nasty custody battle we are in (You can read about it here: Our Saga).
 As I lay there stricken with worry and fear for our future I remembered something our Pastor at Hope Church said on Sunday. The short of it was he reminded us to give our fears to God. We spend so much of our time worrying about things we cannot change, and not enough time enjoying what we have. So today I give my fears, and worries to you God. I will not let them control me or my life. I will not let them take me down the path of depression, a road I was so fearful that would consume me. Today, I vow to not let my fears and anxiety's win. NO, today Lord I give my fears to you. I will dry the tears that roll down my face, and replace them with strength. What better day than today to start fresh? To start new. I am going to stand strong, with my feet planted firmly on the ground and make the most out of what we do have. I will no longer focus on the negative evilness that surrounds our life. I will focus on the love and devotion my husband and I share for each other. I will concentrate on the four children that I am able to hold, and that love me with every fiber of their little beings. I will be the best mom, and wife that I am humanly capable of being. I fear not, because the Lord is with me.
 

**Side Note: We are trying to raise money to keep our family afloat for the next few weeks. You can read a little about our story here: A Plea For Help. If you are able to donate to help us you can follow this link gofundme.com/momofalltrades5. Anything you can spare is greatly appreciated.  And we are not opposed to working for any donations. If you want to do a guest spot, or have me sponsor a post, or write a review for you I can gladly do that!**

A Mother of All Trades: An Update on The Devil Wore a Collar & A Plea for ...

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An Update on The Devil Wore a Collar & A Plea for Help

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When I started this blog I certainly never expected my 100th post to be so depressing and sad. I imagined my 100th post would have been about the fun adventures my family and I were having, but instead it is an update into our Saga, and a plea for help. If you have been following our journey through Hell you know my husband had court today. We had high hopes that there would be some turn around. However, that wasn't the case. I do not have the official papers from the court yet, but when I do I will be sure to post them. Today, my husband was ordered  to pay the bio mom (who works and so does her husband and they have no other children to support), $170 a week. On top of that the only way he is to see his son is through a program called KidSafe. This program supervises visits in a dingy room that is uncomfortable for both child and parent. The initial visit is $360 and every visit there after is $70 per hour. This is the only way he is allowed to see his son until next month when we have an official trial. I am to be no where near my step-son. We still have no answers as to why this is happening, and we have no idea what is going to happen when we go to trial. I am still keeping the faith that something is going to turn around. There is no evidence of foul play on our part in any way, how they are getting away with this is baffling both our attorney and the guardian appointed to my step-son. The only explanation in my eyes is corruptness within our judicial system, which we already suspect is happening.

My poor husband left court today with a heavy heart and went back to work. He is a broken man. This is exactly what his mother and ex-wife wanted. They left him out to dry wet, and now he is just a shell. He feels like he has failed our family. With the new costs we are incurring, on top of the mountains of debt we are in with the lawyer to keep pursuing this case, and our monthly bills just to live and support all of our children we are in way over our heads. We have no idea how we are going to pay for him to see his son, plus that amount of money per week and still be able to afford our home. We are hoping that when we go to trial in June that we will no longer have any need for supervised visitation and the child support will be knocked down because the bio mom will hopefully no longer have sole custody. But until then, we are hopeless right now. I never thought I would get to the point where I am asking strangers for help. But I am begging for help. I do not want my husband to miss out on seeing his son because he won't be able to afford to keep our home and feed all the kids at the same time. I do not want my children to have to move again because of the evil woman doing this to us for no reason what so ever. I know everything happens for a reason, and I know God has a plan for us, but right now for a little while, we need some help.

I am praying that you can find it in your hearts to donate anything you can to us. And someday when we are back on our feet I promise that I will repay the debt we owe you in every way we can. We are desperate, and we desperately want to save our family and keep them shielded from any more hurt. I have been applying for some freelance writing jobs, but if anyone knows of anything out there I will gladly take anything I can get to earn a few bucks. We are not opposed to working for any donations. We are both hard workers and never thought we would be in the position to be as distressed as we are. I want to thank you all who have been sending me well wishes and prayers. They mean so much to us, all of your kind words have been so uplifting when I have needed it most. I sincerely pray with all my heart that next month they will finally let us have our son back, but until then I want to thank you in advance for anything that you can help us out with. We appreciate all of the support and encouragement.

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The #RevofKindness Challenge

#RevofKindness 

I have decided to participate in my first challenge since I have started blogging. What I love most about this challenge is that it centers around KINDNESS. The beauty of this challenge is that you do not need a blog to participate, any form of social media will do. You only need to post once a week, and there will be prompts for 7 weeks. If you would like to find out more or join this challenge with me I would love you if you follow the link HERE (#RevofKindness). You don't even have to write in this challenge if writing is for you, you can participate through pictures, music, or whatever your art form is. This challenge starts next Monday so please sign up today. When I signed up for this challenge I was a bit hesitant as I have never done any sort of challenge like this before. Niki was so kind to explain it to me, and I was hooked right away. There is nothing better than to be kind to other people in this world. We are all walking the same Earth, we all have the same basic essential needs, there is no reason to be anything less than kind to one another. For some reason however, we don't live in a very kind world. This world can be cruel, and hurtful, and deceitful. But that shouldn't change you, that shouldn't make you bitter, that should tell you to be MORE kind. Do MORE good. Kindness comes in all shapes and sizes and I am excited to see where this journey takes me. I hope, most of all, that my friends and family will join me on this journey and sign up to take a part of this challenge #RevofKindness. If you need help, please don't hesitate to reach out to myself or Niki. P.S. I need your help every day to vote for me so I can keep moving up in rank. Please take five seconds out of your day and vote by clicking the picture :) Thank you! 



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A Mother's Day Reminder

With Mother's Day only a week away here in the United States I wanted everyone to keep a few things in the back of their minds when they are posting things about their day. There are mother's out there who never got to meet their babies, their are some mother's who had to give their babies back to Heaven, their are some mother's who never got to fulfill their destiny of being mother's. There are mother's who are mother's by adoption, their are mother's who share their children with biological mother's. There are mother's who feel a constant sting every day because they have suffered a loss of a child, and this day is just a reminder of exactly how painful it is going on without them. No matter what type of mother you are this day shouldn't be any less special for you. But to all you mama's out there suffering, to all the mama's that feel a pain I hope I never  have to feel, I hope you know that you are loved too. I'm sorry for your pain, and I am sorry you don't have your little one to wrap his arms around you. I'm sorry that this day shoves the loss you have endured in your face. But grieving mama, I want you to know that you are stronger than any of us are. For you had to give your baby wings, and here you are, still standing on your Earthly feet. I salute you today, and every day grieving mama. You are fighting a battle I know nothing about. To all the mama's that still have youngsters; remember to hold them tight. That it isn't just today that is special, it is every day you get to hold your baby in your arms that is special. Mother's day isn't about gifts, and presents. And some of us moms, I know I am included, want to just have a relaxing day sometimes "kid free". But please remember that their are mama's who want nothing more than to hold their baby's just one more day. So when that day comes, celebrate the life that gave you the opportunity to celebrate your day.


Don't ask for peace and quiet, because if that's all you had you would want nothing more than the sound of their voices back. Don't ask for a clean house, because someday when they are grown you will miss seeing their toys they once loved. Don't ask to be alone, they are only little for a short time; and someday you will miss those tiny hands and feet. Regardless of if you are a step-mother, a biological mother, or a mother who has suffered a loss, you are still a mother. And I hope you all know how special you are. You all have a job and never complain about it. You are all the most selfless humans that walk this planet. You all deal with things that some of us know nothing about. But the one thing we all have in common is that we love our babies with a fierceness that only we, as mothers, can understand. I hope all the mama's out their have a special day. But keep your neighbor in mind, keep in mind the battle they may be fighting. Be good to everyone you meet. And if someone isn't nice in return, maybe ask yourself why instead of assuming. Love always, Please take a moment to vote for me daily here: