When I woke up this morning all I could think about is my poor husband. This man that works so hard for us every day. This man that has had his child ripped from his arms for no reason at all. I couldn't stop thinking about how much I miss my step-son, and what I would give to hold him in my arms right now. I couldn't stop the flood of emotions pouring out of me as I was anxiously worrying about how we are going to pay the bills this month with all of the time he needs to take off for court, on top of the new costs that have just landed upon us due to this nasty custody battle we are in (You can read about it here: Our Saga).
As I lay there stricken with worry and fear for our future I remembered something our Pastor at Hope Church said on Sunday. The short of it was he reminded us to give our fears to God. We spend so much of our time worrying about things we cannot change, and not enough time enjoying what we have. So today I give my fears, and worries to you God. I will not let them control me or my life. I will not let them take me down the path of depression, a road I was so fearful that would consume me. Today, I vow to not let my fears and anxiety's win. NO, today Lord I give my fears to you.
I will dry the tears that roll down my face, and replace them with strength. What better day than today to start fresh? To start new. I am going to stand strong, with my feet planted firmly on the ground and make the most out of what we do have. I will no longer focus on the negative evilness that surrounds our life. I will focus on the love and devotion my husband and I share for each other. I will concentrate on the four children that I am able to hold, and that love me with every fiber of their little beings. I will be the best mom, and wife that I am humanly capable of being. I fear not, because the Lord is with me.
**Side Note: We are trying to raise money to keep our family afloat for the next few weeks. You can read a little about our story here: A Plea For Help. If you are able to donate to help us you can follow this link gofundme.com/momofalltrades5. Anything you can spare is greatly appreciated. And we are not opposed to working for any donations. If you want to do a guest spot, or have me sponsor a post, or write a review for you I can gladly do that!**
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